You can do everything right...
...and still.
In spite of being double vaxxed and boosted (all Moderna), wearing a mask any time I'm outside of my apartment, washing and sanitizing, and even double masking with a KN95 along with my regular Disney mask on the plane on Wednesday, I tested positive yesterday.
I honestly thought it was just a cold - I've felt exactly the same multiple times over the past 2 years and tested negative, so when I got in line for a "back to school" test, I fully expected it to be negative. But nope. There it was in black and white when I got up to use the restroom last night and checked my phone.
POSITIVE.
I mostly feel ok - no fever, no sore throat...just stuffed up nose and ears and a bit of a cough. And I'm tired. Of course as a teacher working through this tired is pretty regular for me, so... Like I said, I was NOT expecting it. So I guess that goes to show really do not assume that cold-like symptoms are "just a cold" and avoid getting a test. If I subscribed to that line of thinking, I could have exposed my whole class and assistants to this. As it is, I'm isolating through this week and pending no more symptoms - or even improved symptoms but NO fever - I'll be back, masked in an N95 or KN95, in the classroom on Monday. The timing worked out to give me Saturday and Sunday also to rest, hydrate, and recuperate, so that's a bonus. And the cat seems happy to have me home.
But seriously. TEST IF YOU FEEL SICK!
I get it. Not every place is testing like NYC where there are multiple sites that don't require appointments, mobile vans, etc. But if you feel sick, go and get tested. Even if you've done everything right.
I emailed my doctor just to see if there's anything else I need to do. I have "reactive airway" (asthma that acts up when I have respiratory crap going on) but am not wheezing or having difficulty breathing. (Yes, I'm still taking my symbicort.) She said it sounds like I'm doing everything right and to let her know if anything changes. She said this is what is happening that they're seeing - vaxxed and boosted people are getting this thing with cold/flu-like symptoms.
Intellectually I get it. This virus is a bitch and you can do everything right and still get it. It doesn't make you "dirty" or "a bad person" - it makes you a human who is sucseptible to crazy bitchy viruses. But emotionally it's hard to take. Especially knowing that almost half of the staff at school was out today (meaning we're sick and/or in isolation since we all know that you're not supposed to take the day after a break off unless absolutely necessary). It makes me feel soooooo guilty that I'm positive. I know that's stupid - it's not my fault. But it's how I feel. And I have to roll my eyes at myself because that's about the most Enneagram 9 thing you can feel about this virus getting you.
So anyway... That's where things are right now. I'm positive. I'm resting and hydrating - catching up on things I've not had a chance to watch yet like Falcon and the Winter Soldier and then Hawkeye. I'm sure my favorite Guardians of the Galaxy will get some massive replay with both of their volumes. And books will be read.
I'll get through this.
And it's not my fault.
In spite of being double vaxxed and boosted (all Moderna), wearing a mask any time I'm outside of my apartment, washing and sanitizing, and even double masking with a KN95 along with my regular Disney mask on the plane on Wednesday, I tested positive yesterday.
I honestly thought it was just a cold - I've felt exactly the same multiple times over the past 2 years and tested negative, so when I got in line for a "back to school" test, I fully expected it to be negative. But nope. There it was in black and white when I got up to use the restroom last night and checked my phone.
POSITIVE.
I mostly feel ok - no fever, no sore throat...just stuffed up nose and ears and a bit of a cough. And I'm tired. Of course as a teacher working through this tired is pretty regular for me, so... Like I said, I was NOT expecting it. So I guess that goes to show really do not assume that cold-like symptoms are "just a cold" and avoid getting a test. If I subscribed to that line of thinking, I could have exposed my whole class and assistants to this. As it is, I'm isolating through this week and pending no more symptoms - or even improved symptoms but NO fever - I'll be back, masked in an N95 or KN95, in the classroom on Monday. The timing worked out to give me Saturday and Sunday also to rest, hydrate, and recuperate, so that's a bonus. And the cat seems happy to have me home.
But seriously. TEST IF YOU FEEL SICK!
I get it. Not every place is testing like NYC where there are multiple sites that don't require appointments, mobile vans, etc. But if you feel sick, go and get tested. Even if you've done everything right.
I emailed my doctor just to see if there's anything else I need to do. I have "reactive airway" (asthma that acts up when I have respiratory crap going on) but am not wheezing or having difficulty breathing. (Yes, I'm still taking my symbicort.) She said it sounds like I'm doing everything right and to let her know if anything changes. She said this is what is happening that they're seeing - vaxxed and boosted people are getting this thing with cold/flu-like symptoms.
Intellectually I get it. This virus is a bitch and you can do everything right and still get it. It doesn't make you "dirty" or "a bad person" - it makes you a human who is sucseptible to crazy bitchy viruses. But emotionally it's hard to take. Especially knowing that almost half of the staff at school was out today (meaning we're sick and/or in isolation since we all know that you're not supposed to take the day after a break off unless absolutely necessary). It makes me feel soooooo guilty that I'm positive. I know that's stupid - it's not my fault. But it's how I feel. And I have to roll my eyes at myself because that's about the most Enneagram 9 thing you can feel about this virus getting you.
So anyway... That's where things are right now. I'm positive. I'm resting and hydrating - catching up on things I've not had a chance to watch yet like Falcon and the Winter Soldier and then Hawkeye. I'm sure my favorite Guardians of the Galaxy will get some massive replay with both of their volumes. And books will be read.
I'll get through this.
And it's not my fault.
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